Monday, January 16, 2006

It Figures

While taking out the trash and noticing the number of clinking bottles, I decided I’ve probably been drinking too much beer of late and decided to cut back. Tonight I didn’t touch a single drop and voila: instant insomnia. It reminded me why I drink in the first place. I don’t drink to have a good time. I do it to silence the voices in my head, especially that little guy that lives in my medicine cabinet and Vomax, hell-demon of the sock drawer. Those two are particularly persistent, throwing every past failure in my face when I lie on the bed and try to drift away. My head feels like a radiator near to boiling over. Guess I’ll start another book and lie there until the voices shut the feck up and let me fall asleep.

Too many thoughts. The friction they create jostling around is what causes my noggin to overheat. I need a bigger head.

12 comments:

Valkyrie said...

After your New Year's post, I was kind of concerned about you, but I didn't think it was my place to say anything. Well, I didn't know what to say, either.

Kira said...

I find that Mr. Benadryl helps me with insomnia. It's not physically addicting, although if you decide to use it every single night, you'll eventually have a hard time falling asleep without it and/or build up a tolerance. Benadryl doesn't do the other funky things for you that alcohol will do, but it SHOULD at least let you sleep if that's your biggest reason to drink.

sands of time said...

If you think your drinking too much then you probably are.Try doing something really boring before you try to go to sleep.

april said...

And here I've been taking Tylenol PM's to cure my insomnia. I should have been drinking. Only problem with that is that I've IBS, so alcohol gives me the hershey squirts.

How much bigger would your head have to be to fill all your thoughts? Would you be walking around looking looking like a human bobble-head? That would be a sight to see.

Dani said...

Try smoking a bowl. You will either induce paranoia or you will be able to relax and unload your mind. Different things work for different people.

Of course, you have been in a war, so I cannot even imagine the images that are burned in your mind and the voices which torment your thoughts.

IMO: Sometimes when we hear “voices” it is nothing more than your conscious telling you that you have unresolved issues to deal with. If you have offended someone or wronged someone in some way or another, if you confess it to them, you will be relieved of the guilt.

Liz said...

Why not try the good old over the counter sleeping pills. I keep those guys handy. And hey they are low calorie too.

Stacy The Peanut Queen said...

The PK is discovering the same thing...he has TERRIBLE insomnia when he doesn't drink. He's had to resort to resort to sleeping pills yet again.

Benadryl knocks me out too...it's something you may want to try...either that or Tylenol PM (sp?)...that works too.

annush said...

Well if you don't wanna drink, I suposse that weed would help! hahaha

Kerry said...

I went for about 3 years of not sleeping. Drove me insane... no matter how tired I was it took me about 2 hours to finally fall asleep and then I was back up by 3am. That sucks.
Exercise more. I find the more intense I am in the gym, the better I sleep. Benadryl or cough syrup works wonders too ;)

Bec said...

Benadryl keeps me awake, so it might make things worse...

AVA said...

I'm sorry Grant. I've been there in the past and I must tell you IT SUCKS. Do you have a TV in your room? maybe you should consider it. Watching TV doesn't silence the voices in your head, but at least it's louder and helps you drift your attention to something else... Also excersize.. it helps to go to bed reaaaaally tired.

Stacy The Peanut Queen said...

P.S. - I started taking Melatonin and it has done WONDERS for my own sleep patterns.